Broken hearted....

Freeze my warm little heart
so those tears would stop
harden my light hearted soul
so the pain could never get close
why feel such care for you
when you never do the same
why try so hard
when all I get back is in vain
why make you a priority
when Im only an option in yours
time to get a grip
and come back down to reality
don’t waste any more time
if all I do is think of it
such harsh comments
for all my honesty
enough is enough
the truth is just nothing but my own misery

Get over it
let the cold succumb
heartache will lessen
everything will be numb
hope is just a 4 letter word
merely exists for fools
with no grasp for reality
so dumb, I’m just a tool
so is love..
Such is a word
colder than the rain
I need to learn from now on,
love is temporary happiness
with showers of heartache and pain..

2010 at a glance...

A long year has come to past,
before you could grab hold of reality
your 365 days are up..

Its been a rocky journey
from start till end
most amazing memories, they all started in
never in the same way, did it always end

A lot of tears iv shed
Some are happy,
some are sad
Friends I’ve met and known
I’ve come to love
Always there in my time of need
A shoulder to cry on,
In moments, I so desperately seek
Led to a blossomed friendship
I so sorely miss.
Good things never do last
at the airport we bid goodbye
Leaving me sweet memories,
that money can never buy

Been that year of career sorts
Iv come to realise
Blew my 26th candle
and I thought;
what the hell am I doing with my life
New year, new decisions
less procrastinations
More aggressive actions


Painful moments of my heart
as I learnt to let go
that certain someone,
I should have done so,
a long time ago
my heart still scarred
time never did heal it yet
how do you fall for something
that you really never had

Iv learnt to get back on my white horse
still grabbing on to the rope
and it never did struck me
I would be slipping again
down a rocky slope
How did I let history repeat itself
somebody once said
before I knew it,
it was far too late

Sucked into the pits of 2010
Iv dug up a hole,
I could fall back in
or maybe it’s just a molehill
made into a mountain
I just have to get over it
obstacles will always appear
and I will deal with it
Crossing my fingers
it would be a happier year
with a certain somebody
hopefully things will work out
sooner or later
we'd be together....

Stop....

Stop holding my hands..
if all you do,
is going to let them go
stop hugging me so tight
if you're going
to make that warmth
leave me cold..
stop wiping away my tears
if you're going
to make me tear so much more
stop giving a kiss good night
if all you're returning me
is a thousand kisses goodbye ..

Stop saying that you care
and then, make me wonder
why u left me there
stop saying that we'l see each other again
when you know
inevitably,
we definitely won't..
stop saying that everything will be alright
when you know that it clearly wouldn't
stop making me promises
if all you're going to do
is break them all..
Stop saying sorry,
for even a thousand apologies
wouldn't change anything at all..

Just stop whatever that you are doing,
and just let me think..
hopefully one day
I'll stop and realise
you were nothing more
than a beautiful nightmare
from the sweetest of dreams...

Im giving up....

you think when you love someone
you can hop through all your obstacles
even those miles apart
we call distance..
then we realise the times we spent apart
might never make up
for those times we spent together
we tend to lose that touch,
that feeling we once had,


When that moment comes,
one day and I pick up my pen
stared blankly at an open page
and begin to wonder
..what should I write
dialled your number
and you pick up
struck me then,
I didn't know what to say
All Im left with,
is the memories of us
wish time would have stopped then,
then maybe I'd still be holding your hand..

Friendships far apart.. part 2

Distance is sucha crazy thing..

how could people living so far.. always seemed much so near..
how could somebody on a different land.. made you feel so peaceful, so close, so dear
how could just your shoulders.. could simply wipe my tears away
how could your hugs.. keep my sad lil blues away..
how could things be so simple..made so difficult.. coz of those miles apart..
how do you tell them ul miss them..and wish things would never change..
how do u replace a friend, maybe something more.. it might never come by again..
how could people in my life disappear as fast as they appear..

distance & friends are such crazy things..
far too crazy in my reality..
wish it only happened in my dreams..

Friendships far apart.. part 1

You know when you meet the certain people who instantly makes an impact on y0ur life.. somehow its so hard to let them go.. these friends are one of a lifetime, who aint happenin again in y0ur life anytime soon..

you know they'l never leave u.. always will be there for you.. but when that time comes to let them go.. no amount of tears will ever replace them.. or how much u mean to them.. and u wonder, why they ever have to go.. and if onLy these people are just meant to exist for that speciaL moment in your life.. remember to smile cause you'll always treasure those moments, good & bad, because it happened.. not because it ends..

I turned around....

I turned around
you lay one on my lips
I turned around
for every one of my tears,
I got your hug & your kiss
I turned around
I was in your warm embrace
My only inspiration
took flight so suddenly
my clouds turned grey
my hands stood still
I couldn’t find anything,
anything to write or say
my hopes diminishing,
happiness depleting,
I turned around
It was far too late
overcame with silence
It was just fate
I turned around
I lost my way,
pricked my finger on a rose thorn,
I turned around
for the last time,
you were already gone