th0se 5 things...

Its the way you place your hand on my lap
on the long pleasant drives
Its the way you dance with me
like its just us two
in this world
just leading our lives

Its the way you hold my hand in the water
never letting me go
Its the way you never left my side
through my darkest hour
I knew I was never alone
And the way you cuddle me to sleep
could put me into
the sweetest & slumber of dreams

Its the 5 things
I will always remember of you
the 5 thingsthat only matters to me
so it seems
Its those 5 things,
that made me fall so deeply for you
the 5 things
I would trade everything for
If I knew I could have you
back in my life once again..

I don’t want to look back
I don’t want to cry
you’re not worth any of my tears
nor my goodbyes
should the time comes & we meet again
I believe then I’d be truly happy
to walk past you
and never having to ever feel the pain..

never meant t0 be.. a fairytale...

Chapter 1
Brand new chapter to be written
a chapter of you & me
the sparkles in your eyes
the warmth in your touch
what a fairytale it would have been



Chapter 2
Trekking through the forest
too lonely and quiet;
was the canopy of green
As I kept on moving
my eyes met you
I kept on running
I kept on stumbling
Chapter 3
What do I do
when the best part of me
was always you
What do I say
when you make me fall
& I’m the one to pay
I’m falling to pieces
how could you leave me this way
Chapter 5
Like the rocks on a cliff
my heart went crumbling down
did you ever stop to see
how much it really hurt me
It’s too late to apologize
It’s too late for hurt is done
Chapter 6
Under a rock,
I’m buried beneath
Struggling to climb out
or never, it would seem
I screamed your name out loud
but I just can’t make a sound
truth be told
my tears rolled, deep down
Final Chapter
Wish I could be
that last chapter of your fairytale
instead I was just its history,
carrying the pieces of a broken tragedy
With a wave of a wand,
You were a part of me
next moment, seems to be
you were nothing more but a dream
I’m closing my chapters
is it truly over then..
Like a princess still awaiting
for her prince charming
to come save her
& live happily ever after
right till the end...

y0ur birthdAy p0etry present....

If I never met you,
would you be in my thoughts now
If I never flew over for you,
Would it have saved me a million tears
If every poem I wrote to you
would take your breath away
I’d write even more
every minute ,every hour, everyday
If I never see you again
could I learn to let you go
Pains to know you rather not see me again
what did I ever do you wrong

They say you never realise
what you’ve lost
till you lose it
Seems like that it never really got started
you’ve already begun to end it

If the ocean was just an illusion
Why am I sinking in so deep
and if all that ocean was the reason
then maybe I never meant that much to you
as much as I thought I did..
Every second of happiness I felt
I got back a thousand knife stabs through
did I ever mention,
you are the only boy I ever said, ‘I love you’ to...

Should one day you wake up
& find that you’re missing me
You glance to your left
a note of goodbye
is the last you’ll ever see
that picture on my wall
that’s the closest to you
that I would ever be
Always remember, I love you
more than you’ll ever imagine
or what it could have been..

~smiLe...

everyone wears a smile
to hide the sadness behind it
to hide the fear beneath it
or show the happiness they felt from it
But under that facade of smile
lies the truth
one keeps deep rooted in their heart
should that smile ever wear off
would you come save me
or will it just be lost
slowly disappearing
into the deep blue sea
I am losing my smile,
so slowly now
if u didn’t already know
trying to keep it on
to hide tat diminishing hope
not knowing how much longer I can hold on
If you could
please give me back that smile
together with your hug
even if it’s just for a little while...

kisses...

They say time heals all wounds
As I sat there
staringat the pouring rain
I saw your eyes & smile
mirrored straight to mine
through the foggy glass pane

How I’ve yearned for your kisses
That warm touch against my lips
Makes me want to run to you
Makes me want to stop & turn back
Still I want to miss you
Still I want to come back
Hold on to my hand
before I float away
I would write a million poems
If it was the only thing
that could make you stay
How do I erase my memory of you in my head
When everything I see
is nothing more but dreams of you & me
Hold your hand to my heart
and you will find that
you are the only boy
who makes my heart beat slower & faster at the same time
Hours, days, months and still here I am
still hopelessly stranded
staring at the same sunset
longing for your love,
and your kiss
till that moment passes you by..

Ign0rance..is bLiss..

Questions,
they just linger in our minds
would they remain there
and stay wondered
or would answers
reveal themselves
in due time
Will he come back
will he leave
will I ever see him again
or will it just be
nothing more than a memory
As much as we dreamt
As much as we hoped
it would be the answer we wish
reality would appear
right at our very eyes
for it to make us realise
the truth
behind that saying,
Ignorance is always bliss...

Infatuation

Developing an infatuation for one
Gives you every reason to believe
he is the one for you
It may not be the best reason;
Taking photographs
to seize the moment
Capturing his smile
Replaying it on your mind
Such are the bitter sweet things
that may not last
But in the haze of all that infatuation
It could be everything
you have been searching for
all this while..

Sorry...

Sorry,
such a simple word
yet it could mean so much
caused me misery & pain,
who would have thought
Sorry,
is that all you can say
after you used me
then tell me
to get off the train
Sorry,
if only it was that simple
you’ve hurt me bad
but guess you’re not worth
all the tears I’ve shed
Sorry,
you’ve departed
and left me broken-hearted
I should have known
it never got started
Sorry,
but don’t say I’ll be ok
I’ve fallen
you just left me this way
Sorry,
when she’s by your side
am I even on your mind
I should have realised
you are a f—king waste of time
Sorry,
do you really mean
what you say
or is it just guilt
to make me go away
Sorry,
my mind leaves me confused
Maybe all along
it was me using you
you were just his substitute
Sorry,
for I’m sorry too
I’m saying goodbye
for the last time sweetie,
I’m slamming the door on you..

Temptation...

Temptation,
appears when you least expect it,
temptation,
arises when you least desire it,
in a form of a new love,
a new friend,
a new interest,
Temptation,
never does it knock on your front door,
it just leans on your doorbell,
Temptation,
will we succumb to it
and if we do,
we must realize,
it’s always the morning after,
that we have to face
the consequences of
Temptation..

Josh's poem to moi ~

I will never truly know
what we could be
our photographs produce thoughts
together, in our future I foresee
our peers will talk of its unprobability
I know by your side
I can find tranquillity
We live in separate lands
Far, far away
we face tremendous criticismo
f which we can’t understand
In our love struck eyes
It is of no importance
Our cultural difference
bear no surprise
No matter what happens
I will always be your friend
Don’t forget about Hawaii
This poem has come to an end

I miss you more than you could ever imagine
Joshua Ross Jordan

s0mewhere in bEtween a dreAm..and reaLity

Thinking of the times we lay on the beach
the sky darkens as the sun starts to set
I’ve loved every single second of that moment
hoping time would come to a standstill
From walking down the streets of Waikiki
With cold stone melting down our hands
To snorkelling in the deep blue waters
seeing fishes I never dreamt I could see
Memories of that kept running through my head
Could never forget all of it
Best times I’ve ever had

Vast miles of oceans
lay calm between our paths
Still you’re the only person
I just can’t stop thinking about
A tiny message could lit a smile on my face
A simple call would make me float right up into space

Guess I’ve just realised of the impossibility
Coz up till now
I’ve been living somewhere in between
of what’s a dream & just reality..
Every hour every minute drifting further apart
slowly ripping pieces off my broken heart
conversations that’s just left hanging
It’s fading away from life each day

In darkness you’re all I see
In the stormy rain
you’re the silver lining shining on me
So what’s the reason my heart’s still bleeding
Maybe I’m just trying too hard
Maybe I should just stop & try
If that time really comes
Could I really say goodbye

Nothing I could do would change anything
Even time alone could not erase everything
Still so many things that have yet to be said
It’s just laying there on the back of my head
But silence is all that surrounds me
By then, I guess.. it’ll all probably be too late

If we never see each other again
would u miss me
If you found another happiness
would u still think of me
If our paths crossed again
would u still remember me
all these thoughts sometimes
make me feel so blue
but I would gladly go through it all
if someday I knew..
It would lead me back to you....