Infatuation

Developing an infatuation for one
Gives you every reason to believe
he is the one for you
It may not be the best reason;
Taking photographs
to seize the moment
Capturing his smile
Replaying it on your mind
Such are the bitter sweet things
that may not last
But in the haze of all that infatuation
It could be everything
you have been searching for
all this while..

Sorry...

Sorry,
such a simple word
yet it could mean so much
caused me misery & pain,
who would have thought
Sorry,
is that all you can say
after you used me
then tell me
to get off the train
Sorry,
if only it was that simple
you’ve hurt me bad
but guess you’re not worth
all the tears I’ve shed
Sorry,
you’ve departed
and left me broken-hearted
I should have known
it never got started
Sorry,
but don’t say I’ll be ok
I’ve fallen
you just left me this way
Sorry,
when she’s by your side
am I even on your mind
I should have realised
you are a f—king waste of time
Sorry,
do you really mean
what you say
or is it just guilt
to make me go away
Sorry,
my mind leaves me confused
Maybe all along
it was me using you
you were just his substitute
Sorry,
for I’m sorry too
I’m saying goodbye
for the last time sweetie,
I’m slamming the door on you..

Temptation...

Temptation,
appears when you least expect it,
temptation,
arises when you least desire it,
in a form of a new love,
a new friend,
a new interest,
Temptation,
never does it knock on your front door,
it just leans on your doorbell,
Temptation,
will we succumb to it
and if we do,
we must realize,
it’s always the morning after,
that we have to face
the consequences of
Temptation..

Josh's poem to moi ~

I will never truly know
what we could be
our photographs produce thoughts
together, in our future I foresee
our peers will talk of its unprobability
I know by your side
I can find tranquillity
We live in separate lands
Far, far away
we face tremendous criticismo
f which we can’t understand
In our love struck eyes
It is of no importance
Our cultural difference
bear no surprise
No matter what happens
I will always be your friend
Don’t forget about Hawaii
This poem has come to an end

I miss you more than you could ever imagine
Joshua Ross Jordan

s0mewhere in bEtween a dreAm..and reaLity

Thinking of the times we lay on the beach
the sky darkens as the sun starts to set
I’ve loved every single second of that moment
hoping time would come to a standstill
From walking down the streets of Waikiki
With cold stone melting down our hands
To snorkelling in the deep blue waters
seeing fishes I never dreamt I could see
Memories of that kept running through my head
Could never forget all of it
Best times I’ve ever had

Vast miles of oceans
lay calm between our paths
Still you’re the only person
I just can’t stop thinking about
A tiny message could lit a smile on my face
A simple call would make me float right up into space

Guess I’ve just realised of the impossibility
Coz up till now
I’ve been living somewhere in between
of what’s a dream & just reality..
Every hour every minute drifting further apart
slowly ripping pieces off my broken heart
conversations that’s just left hanging
It’s fading away from life each day

In darkness you’re all I see
In the stormy rain
you’re the silver lining shining on me
So what’s the reason my heart’s still bleeding
Maybe I’m just trying too hard
Maybe I should just stop & try
If that time really comes
Could I really say goodbye

Nothing I could do would change anything
Even time alone could not erase everything
Still so many things that have yet to be said
It’s just laying there on the back of my head
But silence is all that surrounds me
By then, I guess.. it’ll all probably be too late

If we never see each other again
would u miss me
If you found another happiness
would u still think of me
If our paths crossed again
would u still remember me
all these thoughts sometimes
make me feel so blue
but I would gladly go through it all
if someday I knew..
It would lead me back to you....