2010 at a glance...

A long year has come to past,
before you could grab hold of reality
your 365 days are up..

Its been a rocky journey
from start till end
most amazing memories, they all started in
never in the same way, did it always end

A lot of tears iv shed
Some are happy,
some are sad
Friends I’ve met and known
I’ve come to love
Always there in my time of need
A shoulder to cry on,
In moments, I so desperately seek
Led to a blossomed friendship
I so sorely miss.
Good things never do last
at the airport we bid goodbye
Leaving me sweet memories,
that money can never buy

Been that year of career sorts
Iv come to realise
Blew my 26th candle
and I thought;
what the hell am I doing with my life
New year, new decisions
less procrastinations
More aggressive actions


Painful moments of my heart
as I learnt to let go
that certain someone,
I should have done so,
a long time ago
my heart still scarred
time never did heal it yet
how do you fall for something
that you really never had

Iv learnt to get back on my white horse
still grabbing on to the rope
and it never did struck me
I would be slipping again
down a rocky slope
How did I let history repeat itself
somebody once said
before I knew it,
it was far too late

Sucked into the pits of 2010
Iv dug up a hole,
I could fall back in
or maybe it’s just a molehill
made into a mountain
I just have to get over it
obstacles will always appear
and I will deal with it
Crossing my fingers
it would be a happier year
with a certain somebody
hopefully things will work out
sooner or later
we'd be together....

Stop....

Stop holding my hands..
if all you do,
is going to let them go
stop hugging me so tight
if you're going
to make that warmth
leave me cold..
stop wiping away my tears
if you're going
to make me tear so much more
stop giving a kiss good night
if all you're returning me
is a thousand kisses goodbye ..

Stop saying that you care
and then, make me wonder
why u left me there
stop saying that we'l see each other again
when you know
inevitably,
we definitely won't..
stop saying that everything will be alright
when you know that it clearly wouldn't
stop making me promises
if all you're going to do
is break them all..
Stop saying sorry,
for even a thousand apologies
wouldn't change anything at all..

Just stop whatever that you are doing,
and just let me think..
hopefully one day
I'll stop and realise
you were nothing more
than a beautiful nightmare
from the sweetest of dreams...

Im giving up....

you think when you love someone
you can hop through all your obstacles
even those miles apart
we call distance..
then we realise the times we spent apart
might never make up
for those times we spent together
we tend to lose that touch,
that feeling we once had,


When that moment comes,
one day and I pick up my pen
stared blankly at an open page
and begin to wonder
..what should I write
dialled your number
and you pick up
struck me then,
I didn't know what to say
All Im left with,
is the memories of us
wish time would have stopped then,
then maybe I'd still be holding your hand..

Friendships far apart.. part 2

Distance is sucha crazy thing..

how could people living so far.. always seemed much so near..
how could somebody on a different land.. made you feel so peaceful, so close, so dear
how could just your shoulders.. could simply wipe my tears away
how could your hugs.. keep my sad lil blues away..
how could things be so simple..made so difficult.. coz of those miles apart..
how do you tell them ul miss them..and wish things would never change..
how do u replace a friend, maybe something more.. it might never come by again..
how could people in my life disappear as fast as they appear..

distance & friends are such crazy things..
far too crazy in my reality..
wish it only happened in my dreams..

Friendships far apart.. part 1

You know when you meet the certain people who instantly makes an impact on y0ur life.. somehow its so hard to let them go.. these friends are one of a lifetime, who aint happenin again in y0ur life anytime soon..

you know they'l never leave u.. always will be there for you.. but when that time comes to let them go.. no amount of tears will ever replace them.. or how much u mean to them.. and u wonder, why they ever have to go.. and if onLy these people are just meant to exist for that speciaL moment in your life.. remember to smile cause you'll always treasure those moments, good & bad, because it happened.. not because it ends..

I turned around....

I turned around
you lay one on my lips
I turned around
for every one of my tears,
I got your hug & your kiss
I turned around
I was in your warm embrace
My only inspiration
took flight so suddenly
my clouds turned grey
my hands stood still
I couldn’t find anything,
anything to write or say
my hopes diminishing,
happiness depleting,
I turned around
It was far too late
overcame with silence
It was just fate
I turned around
I lost my way,
pricked my finger on a rose thorn,
I turned around
for the last time,
you were already gone

s0metimes you juSt gona have t0 learn t0 let them go....

People in our lives
they all come and go
some leave a piece of them
in our hearts
some you wish,
never crossed our paths
You strolled into my life
always such a dear
You brought me much smiles
Tears too,So I feared
You stole a piece of me
When you left that day
I look around now
It feels so empty
dreading that very moment
I knew I’m gona feel this way

Eventually we all have to move on
Despite of these all
I’ve learnt to pick myself up
during this heartbreakingly, bad fall
I don’t want to cry
because it’s over
I should just smile
because you happened
I won’t say goodbye
maybe I’ll see you again
I’m missing you still
up to this day
Never will forget your touch
nor your deep kisses
wish you were here
thinking of you
under the deep pouring rain..

Gravity...

when my world seems
all dark and bleak
I fall back onto you
when everything
never made any sense
I come running back to you
like a pillar of strength
you were to me
I clung on tight
even though time has passed
and you were out of sight
I fall free
into your arms
towards your gravity
I can’t seem to let you go
I left my heart with you
never got it back
all wounded in pieces
why it is so
please set me free
you’re on to me
I don’t want to keep falling back,
back into your gravity..

Untitled...

Sitting perched
under the tree
I wonder what it must have been
You were the last person
I’d imagined
we had much to click
your deep green eyes
caught me right
where I should never sunk in
But now I can’t help
but wonder
if I never met you
I’d never have known
how distant
you could be
Your hazelnut hair
falls perfectly
whereever the wind blows
A smile so sweet
turns friends from foes
What it seemed
was only fun
turned out nothing
like I’ve foreseen
rather anything
wrapped me up in confusion
nowhere near
where I chose to be in
Such feelings are oh so wrong
Swept by guilt
I knew somebody was there all along
Did u have to mess with,
my head and my feelings
or did I fell for it
far too easily
You were a friend
a listening ear
which lasted no longer
then my dried up tears
Maybe I might miss you
just a little, or not too much
When that time comes
I hope it won’t hurt just as much
We’ll never see each other again
So sad and so true
I’ll never forget you
A special friend
Who was there for me
Through the good times
& the blues...

desire....

Desire,
that deep self want,
that yearning urge..
the desire to love
someone we can’t have
the desire to possess
something we don’t own
the desire to be
someone we only admire
the desire to be someplace
somewhere we only dreamed of
When will that desire
finally begin to put out
or will that desire
be just an obsession
all throughout..
An act on desire
in yourself, you would lose
A yearn for that desire
would you regret
on that, you so choose
Would it be so wrong
to act on one’s desire
for you might just trip and fall
or experience
that one moment of happiness,
desire may not be
such a bad thing after all...

Im y0urs...

Stare at the sky
fluffy clouds float nearby
surround yourself
with yellow sunflowers
waves crashing down by the seaside



I leaned on closer
to glance a view
my breath fogged up the glass
I could hear your laughter
as you’re driving through
what’s with the hesitation
I’ll never really know
you’ve always been mine
as I’ve always been yours

I keep you in my heart
every day and every night
I think to myself
who are you clinging on to
instead of me tonight
Tiny white grains of sand
ran softly through my hands
As you’re slipping away
I just couldn’t comprehend
staring at the mirror
who is that looking back
where was that smile
she used to have
oh no wait,
is that the same person staring back
has it been that far too long
full moons & sunsets
have been up high & beyond
If there was ever a doubt
I just want you to know
You’ve always been mine
as I’ve always been yours...

Goodbyes...

They say,
all good things must come to an end
It is then,
when we all have to part
As hurt as it may be
As much sorrow that befalls
time will slowly begin
to heal it all
Such partings could be forever
or maybe just for a little while
For it makes you start to wonder
in the first place
if there was ever a need for such a good bye

Lies...

Lies,
everyone lies
be it a white lie,
to hide the pain
be it that small lie
to cover the truth
when that little lie
starts to hold its grip
fills that barrel of emptiness
from being just skin deep..
When all’s that said & done
and that lie devours you so
It deepens your sorrows
drowns you out

who would have thought
so long Iv kept,
this lil’ burden
not knowing what I’ve foreseen
it could have lead to
if only,
you knew for all this while
today would not have been as lonely
as it would have seemed
just trapped by
this small little lie...
and wonder what it could have been..

starry night..

Bright sparkles of stars
Lit up the big dark sky
Like the little sparkles in your eyes
Lights up my face
Together with a smile
Just like those stars
so beautiful yet so far
fall here into my arms
as you would
just like a shooting star
will u kiss me
beneath the milky twilight
with pretty fireflies
glowing under the bright moonlight
Before I float away
don’t let me go
just hold me close, hold me tight
Just like a little dream
you seem so out of sight
where have you been all this while
I’m still here wishing for you
every day every night
Would I find you
amongst the glowing gems of the sky
Would I find you
holding my stolen smile
I’m like a faded star
that’s lost its shine
Would u return to my side
and be that sparkle in my life..